we are satisfied

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 23:53:21 GMT

Life would be much simpler if I had a common name. What kind of band would my bands name be? None like Huey Lewis's or Ted Leo's or Nick Cave's or Iggy Pop's.

When I grow up I'm changing my name to Sasparella. So when I'm in a pop enduring band we can be Sasparella and the Venus Furs, or something more creative (than me thinking while staring at a Velvet Underground CD)

Righteous, Brother.

Just call on me and ill send it along with love from me to you

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 06:37:07 GMT

So BBQ at McKinley park for whoever wants to come friday around 6/7.
I want Jasmine to come, but she wont. SHE NEVER COMES. W T F.

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 08:17:58 GMT

I made a picnic for Gary and moi tomorrow, I took a sepository, and I cleaned the kitchen.

I'm a good person.
And very content. VERY. content with everything, and very happy about one thing in *particular*

So couples camping august 5-8 I believe.

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 06:46:16 GMT

Katharyn (the mod) has stolen all my jobs and is now stealing my pabst.

But it's all good.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 22:07:52 GMT

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thirteen random things you like
1:	1950's slow songs
2:	Amtrak
3:	Vespas not Scooters
4:	Erin's Ghetto Car
5:	Mix Tape
6:	Dreamless Endless nights
7:	Filtered Cigarettes
8:	Black hobos
9:	Spy VS. Spy
10:	The Beat!
11:	Mick Avory
12:	Quizno's commercials
13:	Apes
twelve good movies
1:	Cecil B. Demented
2:	Beyond the Valley of Dolls
3:	Female Trouble
4:	Trainspotting
5:	Better Off Dead
6:	High Fidelity
7:	Of Freaks and Men
8:	Head!
9:	Hairspray
10:	Elephant
11:	Bad Santa
12:	She's too young
eleven good bands/ artists
1:	The Kinks
2:	Les Savy Fav
3:	!!!
4:	The Microphones/Mount Eerie
5:	The Zombies
6:	The Notwist
7:	The Velvet Underground
8:	Yo La Tengo
9:	Dr. Know
10:	Sonics
11:	Crass?
ten things about you physically
1:	Fat
2:	Ugly
3:	Brown eyes
4:	WTF colored hair
5:	Uh, gorilla ti-ites
6:	Manly
7:	Pussified
8:	Hot Sexy
9:	Bigger left boobie
10:	pretty phalange nails
nine good friends
1:	Rhonch
2:	Erin
3:	Gary
4:	Steph
5:	Lulu
6:	Steven
7:	Uh, Pip
8:	Kate Chaney
9:	Kate Anderson
eight favorite foods/ drinks
1:	diet Cherry Cola
2:	Bread
3:	Chicken Ceaser Salad but with RANCH dressing, i'm crafty.
4:	veg tostodas from Sunflower
5:	VEG sushi
6:	soy sauce
7:	popcorn
8:	celery
seven things you wear daily
1:	Earrings
2:	Jeans
3:	Shirt
4:	Brown Jacket
5:	Express Flip flops
6:	Purse/ bag
7:	A SMILE, HAR HAR
six things that annoy you
1:	People who find me untrustworthy just because I associate with people who do bad things.
2:	food. hella greasy food, dude.
3:	Marley.
4:	when things are annoying me; but i choose not to disclose what is annoying me.
5:	uh, hella horny niggers.
6:	people against racism.
five things you touch everyday
1:	my pussy
2:	my face
3:	my wrists
4:	the keyboard
5:	the phone
four shows you watch
1:	degrassi
2:	Unsolved Mysteries
3:	Kids in the Hall
4:	Family Guy
three people you have a crush on
1:	Gary
2:	Bear
3:	...Jake, except Gary.
two things you hate
1:	My old bff.
2:	my other old bff, i will destruct her.
one thing you love
1:	I supose I should say Gary. but i'll say: the fact that cancer has invaded my body and I will be dying soon enough.

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as of 11:04, july 2nd I'm no longer single. officially. so remember this.

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 06:08:33 GMT

Love me do.
I'm such a cute girl, I don't see why everyone doesn't love me.

hahahahhahahahahaha, i kid.
I love everything so much right now.
Figure it this way, when I get dumped I'm going to be very cynical and beat everyone up possibley?

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 00:05:25 GMT

I've been thinking about the same things nonstop, it's like theyre swirling in my head and it wont stop and it makes me dizzy. Some of it is good, some of it is bad. It reminds me of this one time me and erin made a cake and she was grossed out about how much oil goes in a cake; oil is like 140 calories per tbs and you have to put like a cup and a half in. So half of the cake was the mix...yum and the other half was the oil yuck. Well right now my oil and my cake mix are being blended at full speed, catch my drift?

Anyways. I called rhoni to complain about how I think I'm obsessed with everything that's going down. I'm excited for my bday, but I want to clear my head.
So.
I bought a ticket to SF, and am taking the bus to San Jose and I'm going to Great America.
Tomorrow til Thursday.

Nonetheless, I feel like everythings turned around. If something bad happens to you on someone elses expense something good will happen to. And that's what's been happening, and I love it.

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 23:33:25 GMT

Today was like. The hungriest day ever, I decided to eat popcorn and drink chocolate milk.

Am I relationship bound? Am I work bound? Am I going to graduate highschool with honors and am I losing weight?

NO. all of this is no cause i eat too much. infact im going to go shove my foot down my throat until i puke.

BTW. I bought a beautiful beautiful lacoste shirt today, it makes up a lot for my ugly windbreaker.

We will discuss exactly whats right and what is wrong.

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 05:33:04 GMT

So for a while everything felt okay, I threw away every gun I owned and painted a happy smile on my face.
After last night I feel like I was disowned. Not by people who aren't even close to being friends, not by my parents but by people who broke promises.
And yet again I feel like I'm dying, I feel like everything is going waste.
So.

Right now my mom says I'm not aloud to go out on my birthday, I'm not aloud to see anyone she saw last night, I'm not aloud to have people over, and she basically down-called everyone who I love. Basically my friends are "freaks"(Good job mom, they're raising me a hell of a lot better than you)

No nothings okay, the world doesn't work out for everything to be okay but hopefully I'll either decided to go live with Sarah as planned if my mom could not realize I'm a human being, not a puppy thats been kicked too many times or I can find somewhere to go for the time being. I dont know.

Basically I figure it like this:
I try to be okay with my brother. he's pretty much it with the family.
Once I grad from college I never want to see my mother again.
I don't even talk to my dad enough to hate him.

Whatever man, I don't care about listening to how you're bad person or how you're depressed cause a doctor says so. Fuck that.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 01:25:11 GMT

I'm almost done with one of the packets.
Me and Kate are going around five points to apply for jobs.
I got called janky today. mm, whatever.
The internet is such a dumb place to start shit, what's going to get down? NOTHING.

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 23:57:32 GMT

I feel better.
But then again.
I've been taking laxatives for like a week, it's been a good 3 weeks since i've taken a good crap. I'm waiting for the time i have to go see the proctor about my butt and colon not working. I bet i have a butt infection or butt cancer.

whatever man, it sucks, id really like to empty myself.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 08:13:48 GMT

http://www.livejournal.com/users/butwelikeit/2004/06/13/

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 05:59:55 GMT

I feel like I put everything into a one way relationship, and at first I could've said "I can do this once--i'll be fine, I don't like him" but now I'm crying cause I've been hosed.
I think I just am letting myself get to excited, it's not like i actually like him. I just want the eyes staring at me for once, you know?

:'(

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 08:02:46 GMT

He's a bad motherfucler
16 pairs of shoes in a closet, 6 feet deep and 6 feet high, and 6 feet wide
blackouts on thursdays, total blackouts are where it's at.
I'm going back to highschool where i can make out like a cat.
It's a shake down.
mental break down.
is this a taeke down?
We're gonna make out.
The band sort of sucks, but the audience sucks too much.
I'm going back to highschool where the audience plays rough.
(meet me in the parlor, ill stuff you full of snuff. meet me on the bearskin rug u luv that sexy stuff.)

=)

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 23:26:26 GMT

BTW good by journals. journals should not be the keys to my friendships, they should be the way i keep in contact with most of you.
the internet fucks up friendships, and i dont want to meet people off it.

BUT. if you see a new friends of, uoi might have a clue of who it would be/

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 23:20:46 GMT

I will have my license within the next month and a half, unless I suck at life and I fail.
Pip comes over real early in the morning, makes me eat then leaves.
I hate you. You've ruined me. I had enough energy to hump, which is enough energy.

Insight vs. foresight

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 07:52:36 GMT

I'd like to admit I'm sorry for causing mischief and i'm sorry for making people feel bad and it's not a class act. I'm not doing it for anyone or any title or any reputation. If I'm going to get made fun of, I will take people down with me.
I'd like to admit I'm sorry but I can't.
Not cause I'm fake, if I was fake I wouldn't be able to admit:
I remember everything I say about everything.
Whether it's calling someone an idiot, calling someone ugly or telling someone blandly "I don't like you", I don't forget. It's more of a curse, or maybe it's something good.
There are people in the world that forget everything they say to people, and it can affect the other person so deeply.

So maybe for me; getting made fun of for so long, for everything has crippled me to the point that I can't forget a single thing.

And more than anything right now I'd like to forget about you and what I said, and you know. I can't.

I don't understand how people can break someone apart so harshly and never think about it again.
I guess this means I'm not going to hell.

I L U
DO U L ME?
I doubt it, but I don't care anymore.
I just want you to know that I feel bad, and I feel even worse when you don't respond to my sorrow.

hold onto your genre

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 19:33:25 GMT

Les Savy Fav might be lead by an over sized bearded man, but his voice never falters. Inches, an album planned nearly ten years ago by the band, will become a classic in any cd collection. From the electrical pieces of "Meet me in the dollar bin" to the to the fast vocals on "Knowing how the world works" this cd will be one of the best cds of the year.

****

Oh man. This CD is so amazing. I don't know if it's cause of Seth Jabour's pulsating wiener, or cause We'll make a love out of you/Fading Vibes was the best 7" ever.
man man man man man man, this is like listening to orgasm. except really mediolac orgasms.

to me.

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 06:32:28 GMT

so tomorrow im having a small gathering at lazer x and the prize arcade, if u want free lazer tag and soda. i will treat myself to a pepsi, thnx.

saturday is girls night out in boystown.

<3

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 02:59:35 GMT

I haven't ate more than two sandwiches in the last three days and i've had hot cups of tea, my body gives way by 8 but i stay up to four.
I've been exercising as much as i can endure but nothing is happening.
I wish I had really ugly friends that weighed 200 pounds and had warts on their faces so i was the hot one.

My one year planned has failed me.
I am on a platue, i can't tell if i'm shrinking of if i'm just staying the same but it's not good enough.

the sick thing is i can't ever see myself getting better or getting good enough.
I feel like i'm going to be on this one year plan for ever until I shrivel up.

I've been pretty happy cause of my boy. i call him my boy neglecting the fact he has a girlfriend, but talking to him has made me the most content person.

My glasses don't fit on my head, i've stepped on the twice in the last week and i hardly even wear them anymore.

I can't finish my homework, I'm so excited. I don't even know what i'm excited for.

I'm worried about Anna. What happened to her has happened to me and it really fucked me up. I hate you trent. I will soon unleash my minions of death on you.

I don't even have enough energy too write. and all i want to right about is how i wish i was perfect. and really tan.

my bday is tomorrow. no one has really said anything about except steven smiley who said happy bday, but whaetevre.

back to the pictulator.

cold blooded new times

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 23:13:35 GMT

I've been thinking of this weekend, how little i care about my birthday and you know. whatever.
but i def want to get some rays in so if anyone wants to wake boarding or rafting sunday or early saturday call me.
i have a raft.

I think I will get a new do for summer. maybe some color in, i dont know.

Sun, 30 May 2004 20:44:38 GMT

HE ruined everything. If only I was ready for some transgender lovin. Boys who have strap ons are so much more nicer than boys who don't have estrogen. =(.

Drugs are more important than me. =( =( =(.

I bought the fading vibes 7" by Les Savy Fav a couple weeks ago. excellent.
Yo La Tengo was really good, but they played for like two hours. They're SO funny live, the singer had many puns to make fun of the san franciscians with.
The whole time I was picturing Les Savy Fav up there and me saying -"Seth Jabour-take my innocence."
But the singer, aged from 20 years of making wonderful music, looks like an older Seth. It's wonderful. Rock Star crushes are so much easier than real crushes. I can't get hurt.

Anyways. So whats going on next Thursday? Isn't that Dave Bazzan's second time seeing Tenley? No. I don't know if I'm going.

I want to see that movie about the guy who eats Mcdonald's everyday for 30 months and than he can't get erections. Who is with me?

Sat, 29 May 2004 00:19:46 GMT

I'm so sick of being homebound cause my mom wont give me rides anywhere, and yet she refuses to let me take driver's ed.

It's like she knows something. She knows/

Thu, 27 May 2004 01:55:16 GMT

I realized today while writing my persuasive essay that I had no valid points, but I didn't want to change it. So I'll accept having repeat this class for the third time because I suck at life and have taken no real interest in any sort of issue that one might feel strongly about.

That is all.

Wed, 26 May 2004 00:10:46 GMT

Me and Jas ended up finding a ride with her sister for Sondre Lerch/Yo La Tengo.

But I have to go to another show alone.

yay